AHHHH~ i'm like so gonna die liao lah. so stressed like that. over what? i also dont know.

anyway that pig is going sentosa. damn. hope he get burn all over. wahaha. i'm so mean. =x lolx.

i'm so bored. bored, bored, bored.

den some people dont want accompany me. haha. you asshole. blehs.

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i saw alan's friendster. haha. i'm so glad i'm not with him anymore. why? caused i've found someone(you-know-who) much better than him. with him, other than the normal watching movies and going town and esplanade, it's still movies and town and esplanade.

dating is boring as you can see. everytime is like going out with his friends and my friend. den he'll go with his friend and me with my friend. leaving your gf for your friends is a really BAD example. understand my darling? haha.

with him, it's all about studies since he's in njc. those kan chiong king. =x him, being such a study freak, going out with him on school days means looking at him study in the lib doing nothing. [ for your information, i was having my holidays then. ]

all right i admit i was attracted to his looks when i first saw him. we were together after a short period of time and that was my mistake. since i only know his looks, i didnt know much about his character.

i dont remember how and when he asked me, he didnt really asked to be exact, we were together. we were caught on the streets a few time by his clique. they didnt know we were together then. and all we could do is let go of the hand we were holding. [darling, i'm never gonna let you go!!!]

the funny thing was he was so damn paiseh to hold my hand when we were together. and to hold my hand, he'll give all sorts of excuses like 'come, i bring you see something', and me, i'll dumbly believe what he say as he pull me to the place. [you just grab my hand and go.]

we dont really talk when we meet. cause, we dont know each other well enough. and i dun have the temptation to hold his hand. [darling, see the diff? haha.]

the sweetest thing he did was to msg 'i love you' when he was in hongkong. i thought it was kinda sweet though it's just a sms. but all he bought back was a keychain with my name on it. quite disappointing though. [you said that lots of time. =D]

on a couple of occasion, he just flare up for some trival things. like me going out with my male junior and male senior. i mean what's the big deal? are you going to become jealous over this small things? it's not as if there's something on going between me and them! and what's more, dont be a jerk to tell your friend what happened and let them come tell me off. if you want to say anything, say to me face to face! [dont be jealous of my guy friends!]

and the worst thing a guy can do is compare his girlfriend with his ex-girlfriend.

he was quite romantic when it comes to things that he say. [darling, you're sweeter. tsk tsk.] he tried to kiss me sometimes but everytime i just turn away. i dont really love him you know? it's just an infatuation to be precise. and my first kiss was stolen away from me by valarie, xf's dog. haha! although that's not counted as my first kiss since i wasnt willing to kiss it. lol. [i'm willing to kiss my chow chow for as long as i want, as many times as possible~]

he was a super punctual guy but he's willing to wait for me. [darling, PLEASE LEARN THIS POINT! haha]

anyway we broke up because of something trival. it doesnt make any sense for the breakup. but it's over already anyway. =) it was an awful breakup to be actual. haha.

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my darling on the other hand is so much lovable by me. so you should be GLAD! haha.

you made the deepest impression on first day of orientation. second day you came over and talked to may and me. talking cock should be your forte right? haha. third day i only remembered the dance you all put up for us. to be frank, I CANT SEE YOU DANCE! cause someone was blocking my view and the dancer diagonally across was big enough to cover the whole of you. HAHA. so may and me decided to get to know you.

i asked stanley for your num. remember the first msg i sent you? you better do!

den was the phone calls we made in the middle of the night. and you telling me you're at s11 blah blah blah. and finally, the first date with you!

it was after my work and after your sentosa outing with your freshies. i was real bored so i decided to meet you up and see how you could entertain me.

plaza sing was our dating gound since you didnt wanna go lau pa sat right? haha. the first food we shared : herbal chicken~ haha. you stunned me with your attitude which is going back to sit and buying drinks meanwhile the person was preparing our dish. that was the first time i ever did that. really.

we watched monster-in-law right? if my memory dont fail me. after the movies, it's already like 11plus near to midnight. we took cab home. and you stunned me again by asking the question sengkang or sembawang nearer. i thought you were going to go home first and leave me taking the cab home alone after reaching your place. BUT luckily you didnt. =) lucky you. haha.

the cab driver stunned me too. by answering that both are equally far away but you should send me, your so-called girlfriend, home first! haha.

and that night, you popped the question right? haha. i could feel that you were really paiseh. i didnt give you an answer on purpose! =x make you xin yang yang. haha. =D

soon after, you know what happened dont you?

there's alot of fights between us. but what does that prove? it proves that i still love you no matter what; cause i'm never gonna let go.. i really cherish you as my boyfriend.

i just love the way you look at me, the way you talk, the way you act, the way you are!

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in conclusion, there's really no sparks between alan and me. really. so, my point is, I LOVE RAYMOND LIM SUNG FENG!! they cant be compared. they're exactly two different guys.

darling, i'll give you a crash course soon kay? so be good. haha. and LEARN! tsk tsk. =P

i'm reminising those days. with my darling of course~ i love you more than you love me! *muacks. i'm so in love with you. i wanna marry you! that is if you treat me like a princess!! tsk tsk.

walao. say what i never say much bout you ar? you also what. still say me. idiot.










k lah k lah.










I LOVE YOU lah! big enough not? can see not? *wu nai. haha.

this is what i call wu nai. lol.

mochi again.

mochi bai nian-ing.

see this? cute rite? sis and me thinks it look like a smiling cat. *big smiles~

asked some of my frens and know what they say? it look like a rabbit/monster. duhh. from which angle does it look like a rabbit/ monster?




it's damn sucky when you talk and people dun hear it or pretend not to hear it when you talk. fcuk. so maybe it's better not to talk especially when you get cut off just like that. when you try breakin the wall but the wall is just resisting. haha.

darling, go this link. www.raymond.lim.youaremighty.com. lol.

project sucks. i just hate projects. haha.

today started off quite 'suckily'. why? cause our attendence werent marked cause we're late. duhh. bitch. onli 15 mins late lor. some more, where's our 10mins allowance? duhh. some more give us work that no one has any idea how to do it. blahs.

ate at fj. aiya, food there is becoming suckier n suckier. big boo!!!

went to lab after that. saw a couple of cute guys. tsk tsk. =x dbms is dumb. make my brain dead only. haha. did something stupid with hf's msn. drew lots of stupid stuff to kitty n irene. funny seh.

den had project meeting. boo~! stress lah. haha.

anyway met my lovely/ super act cute bf. den went to north canteen to eat. anyway i think south canteen's yong tau foo is so much nicer than that of north canteen. haha.

bluetooth is SO fun!!! haha. right my dear? haha. sent my dear to work. omg. see? i'm so sweet rite? keke. so darling, you know what to do right? haha.

today is so foggy lor. even after the heavy rain. boring. it was drizzling when i went home. there's like lightning every now and then. so scary. how i wish you were with me. =( haha.
oh ya, on my way home, when i was on the train, i saw this super rich guy and girl together. the guy was wearing a calvin and klein tee, armani jeans, adidas shoes, prada bag and 3250phone.. the girl was wearing abercombie tee n ck's jeans. duhh! life's not fair! rite!?

watched undisclosed. this undisclosed is so stupid. wtf. i've like guess the mastermind long time ago. wth. stupid lah. like the village like that.

WAH~ so happy. blogger saved this post!! if not must retype everything again. phew! gan dong neh. haha.

flip's injured. why? cause it fought with berry again. and this time, it's him who got hurt. at the eye portion again. haiz.

have not blog properly for a thousand of years. hah.

my hair sucks now. why? coz it's super dry. so ppl out there, dun bleached ur hair if you dont have to.

i hit my knee against the metal thingy today. sucks. now it hurts so bad when i knee down. boo~

i've changed my mindset again. saw tammy while i was going home. she was pretty, petite n skinny. the kind of girls lots of guys would like. but after the 'nyp scandal' thingy. i guess pretty much ppl view her as shameless. as in after so many ppl knowing bout the things she had done, she still can go to school like nothing ever happened. but, think lah. wad if you were in her shoes. she didnt wan the videos to be exposed either. she was a victim too. she did everyone had the right to condemn her? NO! who's there to judge. do you even have the right to judge what's right from wrong? DO YOU? you dont. why? cause different people have different perceptions. not everyone is brought up the same way. the culture is different. so is the environment. so you cant expect everyone to be the same.

what if you change the surrounding. and all this happened in the western country. den would that be so much of a condemning thingy going on? i mean, what do you expect her to do? dont study forever? or stay at home and cry? and blame everything to herself until one day, she cant take it anymore and kills herself?

i was thinking, why are singaporeans so narrow minded? it's not as if she killed someone or something like that. so if a porn star does that then it's alright? haha. life's juz not fair to everyone!

and another issue. SEX. what's the great deal of having sex? benjamin once told me that on the average, girls lose their virginity at 17. so if any one had had sex before marriage, then it's considered not decent? wake up man. 'virginity is not virtuality, it's the lack of opportunity' quoted from wj. it's something like that if i didnt remember wrongly. it's quite true lah i think. but well, ppl will beg to differ i guess. i mean is sex really a bad thing? it IS unless you do it for a motive. like having sex to make your partner stay with you. unless you're the SPG, izzy. who does it to satisfy her needs and to get pampered by those ang mohs.

but if you make love cause of love, or you're married, den on a spiritual level, what's wrong with that? didnt god create us to, like, reproduce for the next generation? to replace the dead? it's also another step to improve on your relationship what! it's only that it's on a more intimate level.

next, kissing. people view kissing in public as obscene. it's often that people tend to stare one kind at those kissing in public. especially teenagers. but what's wrong with that? it is obscene to like give a peck? cultural differences. haha. so it's not obscene for married couples to kiss in public? so it's sweet for them to do that? well, as i've said. life isn't fair lah.

so think about it. cant you people be a lil' more open minded?

jin xian saw me. but he didnt call me. duhh. but i was walking fast. so it's good enough tat he noticed me. haha. he saw my feeling then. he msged and ask what happened. haha. such a nice person.

soon colin and kero will overtake xiaxue. i think she'll be damn pissed to be overtaken by them. lol.

'I believe a best friend is someone whom you are not afraid to quarrel with, or rather, I should say, speak your mind with. And even after being honest about the comments towards each other, both of you are still as close, or even closer than before! They never gossip about each other behind each other's back. No, they never gossip about one another. Instead, when someone speaks ill of his/her pal, he/she tries to take the comments very seriously and help his/her pal become a better person lest they get stabbed by others even further..

A best friend should also be someone who truly cares, and someone who would be there for you, rain or shine. He/she should just be a phonecall away. They can also almost finish up each other's sentences. They will hide nothing from each other, and will not have selfish thoughts towards each other. They should never lie to each other, honesty is just so important although I know it is human nature to tell a white lie occasionally. On the spiritual level, they will always edify each other, pray for each other and understands each's needs, although neither of them are God..

They love each other alot, but it's just a love between friends. They can't do without each other, but not to the extent that when one dies, another has to join the other in Hades! They'll sacrifice for each other and has complete trust in each other..That is my ideal kind of best friend. Although I am also not as good as wad I wrote above, I am striving to be. And even though I am still far from good, I will work hard to find such a friend..'

i read this on someone's blog. everything's so true. i didnt manage to have one.

i saw a RAINBOW on 22 april 2006!!!! woohoO~ will be back soon. not in a good mood. hah!

i'm tired. i'm exhausted. i'm drained.





haha. i actually fell asleep beside u!!!!!!!!! muahaha. this proof how drained/tired/fatigue/exhausted i am. den, when i woke up, i realised i was still holding ur hand! haha. see lah. my hand numb le. how are you gonna make up to me? niahahaks. i wanna sleep beside you again. I SIMPLY LOVE YOU!!!

okies, everyone's spreadin tat gay's blog. how i noe? coz julian put it on his nick! haha.

CUTE?!?



















but they're gays. *sadden.



















proof??


















there. proved.

















need another one?
















saw? haha. aiya, wasted. so cute lor. if onli they werent gays........ tsk tsk. nah, i'm juz kiddin.


flip's tryin to sleep now n i'm trying to irritate him. HAHA. he's like a hen now. chuckles? lol.

smelly mochi did the perky! SO CUTE!! she shake her BUTT! woo woah~ she's happy! until i cage her up again. haha.

school's pretty boring these days. blehs.

i dyed my hair. wani added more highlights for me coz they aint obvious enough after dying at kiwi's house. haha. helped add more highlights to her hair too. we're pros. lol.

watched the west side story at her house. so nice lor. remember ed the times at victoria theater. gosh. so NICE~ but ya ya, it's another romeo-juliet or liang san bo-zhu ying tai show la. a sad show. the dance and songs were great. so feel like watchin this musical seh. but.... no $$$. shit.

i said this yest. you become good because of influences from frens. yet, you become bad because of them too. how irony. sound so intellectual eh? haha.

damn. having eye irritation. ARGH!!!!!!

darling, juz wanna let you know i really cant be without you. so thanks for tolerating all my nonsense and me. i love you! dont you dare leave me okay?! haha. *muacks! ^@^

haha. i'm lazy to blog nowadays. =x

anyway things i'm about to say should had been blog long ago. but... i juz didnt.

chicago was nice. n maybe i'm juz so accurate saying somethings. tsk tsk. went to the 7eleven at sunplaza. say kuankim n weiwen on the way there but they didnt see us. den went to the other 7eleven at the train station. anyway, after we bought our cup noodles, i said something like wad if later we walk out n see kuankim? n i said this real loud n there, suddenly a some what familiar face appeared. n there, KUANKIM. haha. so the point is, how come i could be so accurate saying this nonsensical stuffs while those more important stuffs aint tat accurate? duhh. sad rite? y cant i strike 4d when i say so? lol.

flip's in the dead post again. haha. *cute!

dad sort of vented his anger on us. blah blah blah. aint in the mood to blog already. fcuk.

haha. sis did something real stupid.

me: 'the comb got fei fei's smell wad. of coz mochi dun like lah.'

sis *smells the comb.

lol. funny funny.

saw a super cute bunny pic. fell in love wif it when i saw it. but i still love chow chow~! hahas.

gan chao hor fan is nice! haha.

went to tm yest. tat sales girl. sucha bitch. it's not as if i cant afford the products there. so fuck off lah if u have have bad customer service. hahas. saw a super nice puma sweater. bf, please get it! haha.

ate den went to town. he bought a shirt at fos. haha. i think the shirt was not bad lah. lol. walked in search of the wallet i wanted to buy. but guess they were not open that day. damn sian.

today played ps. haha. i'm like a retard seh. not used to it. still prefer arcade. lol.

anyway, let me post some of my bunny pictures. =))

mochi says 'HI!'

mochi's BUTT.

fei fei 'seducing' flip. lol. fei fei's very long as u can see.

berry.

berry again. cute rite? cant see he's been thru a surgery rite? hehe.

the miss-matched couple. haha.

seen a sleeping bunny? there! that's flip.

close up on flip.

see tat round thing? that's how enormous fei fei is.

close up on fei fei.



ah beng n me. love him so much~ muack muacks. tsk tsk.



caught fei fei. FINALLY. cut her nails, brushed her fur. she's losing alot of hair fur. n she scratched me as she escapes. duhh. super sian. haha.

anyway did i mention i saw this super freaky lady the other day? she has high forehead, looks very pale, wears a lacy olden days kind of dress, super skinny n was sleepin sounding at the seat nearer to the door of the train. IT WAS FREAKY LAH!! i dunno how to explain lahs. duhh.

happy tenth month my dear fat chow chow. i'm late by a day. tsk tsk.

i hurt my leg. boo~ all because of tat fat pig. duhs. so u better be good to me these days cause u MADE ME SUFFER!! tsk tsk.

shall be back soon cause my stupid sis forgot to bring her stuff to study!! duhh.

aites, today was dumb. a waste of time. but ya, cant be bothered since u dun give a damn shit either.

is it too much to ask when i ask u to wait for mi at one destination tat u have to go else b4 i arrive?

jaded.

it's sometimes quite stupid to bare everything out to one particular person only to realise tat person dun give a damn shit bout u n all they can think is about themselves. haha!

my frustrations. the person who get it most was u. coz i thought u were and will be there for mi. but i seriously doubt it now. haha. how irony.

it's stupid to try so hard to protect/care/wadeva for someone but they dun sense it lah. dumbass. how could u say u dun even know how if u dun/havent even try once? maybe u think the person u're doing it for isnt worth it at all? tat's my opinion. f uck.

blah blah blah.

cant be bothered to blog bout someone who isnt worth it.

call/sms me if u even bother/care bout me/want to go out tmr sincerely and not just for the sake of it.

anyway watchin superband. n wad i can say is these ppl are like, stupid? i wonder who will win. hopefully j3 or g-force or juz b or si nuo bi. aye, some group who's nice lah. samuel lau was great lah. cool. didnt know he was so good at singing. the judges were impressed by him n his teammates i guess. hope they win.

flip's so cute when he sleep. love it. =D

having mood swings. suckit.

take the lead. if you even understand wad i'm saying.

wad guys only know to do? LOOK. haha. the male instinct. idiotic.

life's such a contradiction.

anyway watch erin brockovich. a very nice recommended show by me. watch it if u can. =)

off to watch almost here. ciaos~

changed my blog skin.

n i dyed tat stupid ah beng's hair! haha. i'm skilled okie? really. tsk tsk.

caught a movie. tristan and isolde. haha. not bad la the show. was embarassed coz i didnt know how to pronouce the name when buyin the tix. but lucky tat malay guy didnt know either. so ppl who doesnt know how to pronouce, it's i-sold. haha.

went to shop at bugis. funny seh. i wore shirt n shorts lah. n worst so coincidentally i saw fiona. n more coincidentally she bought the same bag as mi. wow. wad a concidence. haha.

saw mingcheng yest at the coffeeshop. haha. stupid. didnt realise him till he was leaving. haha.

anyway AH MEI ROTI PRATA AT SUNPLAZA IS NOT NICE! n THEIR ATTITUDES SUCK TO THE CORE. haha.

went out wif xf today. ate at sakura. NAISH~! saw a quite cute guy who looks like my fren's fren. HAHA.

i want to keep a chow chow. can can? bf, please get it for mi k? wahaha.

played my heritage. n indeed my bf looks like pei young jun ah beng. haha. love my darling. *muack muacks.

u better treat me good coz u owe mi!!!! tsk tsk.

i need to cut my hair soon. n school's timetable is like, NOT OUT YET? duhh.

aites, lazy to blog now. shall be back soon. i try lah. haha.

- what's life greater than death? LOVE. -

this is supposed to be posted on 5th may. but... haha!

i'm back!!! miss me? lols.

31st march :

tok to jin da. haha. so funny seh. knew more bout him actually. a very fillial guy. a very interesting guy to be exact. someone who knows alot in the real society even though he only like as old as me? haha. this is wad i call 人在江湖, 身不由己. haha. he a nice guy. n finally i got him say out something i wanted to know so badly when i was in ve. he said tat there were rumours bout me n cs being together when we're not! but rumours ARE rumours. rumours would be rumours. i've completely no idea wad i was facin in ve coz there was no one to help. everyone was like busy wif their own busines. tok till my chowtong ended work. at bout 6am in the mornin! haha. realised they have similar character. lol.

been out the other days. shopping, playin xbox n stuffs. it's nice. wahaha.

berry looks super sad nowadays. duhs. lookin at him simply makes mi sad.

mochi's been throwing tantrum nowadays. i wonder wad's up wif them nowadays.





saw shawn a few days back loitering. haha!

went to play xbox juz now. wanted to play dead or alive. some volleyball game. but the game somewhat ended up like a porn game. WTH! haha.

saw ql's blog. her class seems super fun. maybe np is juz so fun n happenin.

haha. anyway today may suck. coz plans like so off. wtf. sian lah. planned so hard for a surprise for her n in the end she says she maybe cant turn up becoz of driving eye test/wadeva shit when in the first place she agreed to come. fcuk.

shall blog again soon. simply moodless. bwahs.